What's It Like...?

Do you ever get caught up in how you are supposed to act and feel and sometimes deny your true feelings and wants because the consequences might not be very pleasant? Or, even though you are an adult with a vast knowledge base of life and experience to draw on, often lack confidence in yourself? That is how I have been feeling lately. Part of my personality is that I am always second guessing myself about decisions and feelings (I think part of that is being a Pisces as well- we are notorious for that). I would like to be the Confident One- sure of herself shown by her actions and words. I know a few of these people... they set goals, stick to them, and achieve them, they speak their mind, they make decisions and go forth seemingly certain they are in the right. Nope- I am definitely NOT one of those people...

What's it like...

to sail through days and situations
with the absolute certainty and confidence
that you are doing the right thing
instead of always questioning and second guessing
every little thing said or done?

to say and do what you really want to
knowing unfortunately,
the relationship
may be unequivocally changed
because of it
instead of just going through the motions
and always hiding behind
the pleasantries and the supposed-to's?

to have the complete and utter knowledge,
conviction, and trust
that life is unfolding the way it is supposed to be
with reasons for everything
instead of feeling at the mercy
of a master puppeteer who has set you down
all tangled and twisted
while he's gone and taken a break?




This poem was the interpretation of the prompt "What's it like?" for OSI this week. Please visit the other talented poets to see their intepretations of this prompt as well.