I have been putting it off and putting it off but I can't put it off much longer. I have to get into my mom's house and start dismantling it and sifting through her belongings so we can put her house on the market. After she died, we had the excuse of the holidays and not having time. Then it was Jan. and Feb. and my absolute busiest time at school. But now- it's March and I really have run out of excuses. Oh I know why I have been putting this off.; I can figure that one out really easily. By not getting started on it, it's kind of like an avoidance and not facing the reality that my mom is really gone- that both parents are really gone. it's hard.

It makes logical sense that I am the one to shoulder this responsibility. I live the closest (7 minutes with traffic and lights), however, I wish I had the company (comfort?) of my sister to do this with. This really will be an arduous and daunting task; one that I am facing with trepidation. I just can't imagine how her well-lived life and lifetime of memories will be reduced to a bunch of bags and boxes. It just doesn't seem right. I hope I can stay positive and diligent during this process and be able to celebrate her life instead of continue to mourn it.

Any thoughts or advice on this?